MEMORY

JOE BIDEN IS UNDER SCRUTINY FOR INCONSISTENCY AND EMBELLISHMENT OR MEMORY METAMORPHOSIS 

OLD WHITE JOE HOMOGENIZED AND WHIPPED OLD WAR STORIES INTO A COMPLETELY UNNECESSARY FROTH  OF DRAMA QUEENERY

I try to avoid the event mixing and the puffery, only the straight goods will do.

There is a process where a true recontation of an event will change in interpretation over time. The facts of the acts remain consistent but a very different importance and understanding of what the event signified or caused to happen can emerge over time and appear to be a changed narrative when that has not happened. I had various theories as to why certain events would cause me to collapse. Tonic Immobility, Collapse Immobility and PTS Seizure are very possibly the same thing or variations on a syndrome due to causation or triggering differences from person to person and from one Mainfestation of Symptoms to the next. 

I was trying to tell my GP Doctor what had happened to me and how I have repeatedly collapsed: "In 1993, my ex-wife clawed at my eyes and threatened Police Action or Scrutiny I was to say but I was cut off at "My ex-wife..." , " I don`t need to know said my Doctor and he reached for his computer``. That ex-wife attack was possibly the first Collapse I thought, but I now realize that I was Collapsed in 1984. There had been the loss of the first house and all family possessions and then I had to work on the ruined land and the new house, there was flooding and everybody was fighting me as I tried to rebuild, it seemed to be a back problem, I was operated on, but was told there had not been much wrong with my Pilonidal Sinus, I think that I was in a Tonic Immobility Collapse but I had no idea what was wrong with me, I simply could not walk or stand for long in the Spring of 1984. I had been through hell from 1980 to 1984.

Then broke, possessionless, I had to work from right after my operation in May of 1984 to 1992, seven days a week, twelve hours a day and absolutely no pay, not a cent for me, ever. There was a lot of fear too as the first would come and I would not be able to pay store rent til a few days late and not a dollar ever for me with that going on.

In early 1993 my very young son Louis was to spend some time with me, when I heard the knock at the door. I opened the door and I squatted down to greet him and instead ny ex-wife scratched at my eyes and hissed at me "Your girfriend is a coker and you were seen running from the scene of an accident with huge bags of Cocaine." Ridiculous, is it not, but it worked on me. I Collapsed and stayed Collapsed for about three years.

Many times I said that I recoiled and slipped on pop bottles for recycling but guess what, that is not what happened in reality. Empty Pop bottles will not turn into frictionless rollers, seeming to yank the floor from underfoot, the bottles would crush and bend. That is what it felt like, like frictionless rollers sweeping my feet from under me and dropping me on the floor. 

TONIC IMMOBILITY, COLLAPSE IMMOBILITY OR PTS SEIZURE, WHATEVER, YOU END UP IN CONVULSION OR COLLAPSED INSIDE OR RIGHT DOWN TO THE GROUND ON ONE LEG OR FEELING LIKE THE GROUND WAS FRICTIONLESS AND REALLY FLOPPING AND PILING OR FALLING BACK.