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My Mother would jump on me like this but I was usually in a prone position. |
THE COLLAPSE SYNDROME APPEARS TO AFFECT PERSONS WHO WERE SUBJECTED TO CHILDHOOD TRAUMA WHERE THERE WAS A CRUEL DENIAL OF THEIR DESIRES, ASPIRATIONS AND NEEDS WITH BEATING BEING SUBSTITUTED FOR ALL OTHER CONTACT WITH PARENTS.
THE SUPPRESSION I WAS SUBJECTED TO BY MY MOTHER WAS CAST AS RIGHTFUL AUTHORITY AND WAS PHYSICAL IN NATURE AS WELL WHEN I WAS THROWN DOWN AND THEN JUMPED ON WITH THE BREATH BEING SQUEEZED OUT OF ME.
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I FIND MYSELF AFTER COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION CONSTANTLY TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH A RELEASE BREATH AND I STRUGGLE TO BREATHE JUST LIKE I REMEMBER IT WAS LIKE AT AGE FOUR.
I DID GET OVER THE INFANTILE PARALYZED PERSONALITY CREATED REPEATEDLY A NUMBER OF TIMES. WHEN I WAS INJURED OR MY PROPERTY WAS TAKEN OR DESTROYED I BEGAN TO BE UNSETTLED.
THE INSTITUTION OF UNJUST, UNLAWFUL AND FALSE AUTHORITY OVER ME CAUSES ME TO BECOME MORE PARALYZED AND MORE PRONE TO COLLAPSE OR CONVULSION AND REALLY DOES DAMAGE IF I HAVE BEEN INJURED AND I HAVE NOT RECOVERED.
THE MOST DAMAGING COLLAPSES HAVE OCCURRED WHEN A FEMALE ABUSER, LIKE MY MOTHER WAS TRIGGERS VIOLENT AUTHORITY ON TO ME WHICH WAS PLAYED OUT BY RAIDING MY BUSINESS AND MY RURAL HOME. REMEDIAL LITIGATION WAS MADE IMPOSSIBLE BY CREATING A DEFAMATION WHICH MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE TO HIRE LAWYERS. WHEN I PROGRESSED LITIGATION MYSELF I WAS SURROUNDED BY SHERIFFS AND I COLLAPSED. COURT DATES WERE SET MANY TIMES AND THEN COURT WAS HELD AT AN EARLIER DATE WITHOUT NOTIFYING ME AND THUS WHAT EVER MY RESPONDENT WANTED WAS ADJUDICATED WITHOUT ME.
Footnote:
"Crazy Not Insane" by Dorothy O. Lewis is about the creation of Serial Killers and Psychotic Killers through physical injury and other maltreatment or mistreatment during childhood.
New, sometimes psychotic, alternate entity persons are created to escape the maltreatment.
I definitely attended Mother Collard's Serial Killer School with high impact and pain treatment.
The documentary states that shaking children, slamming them into objects or striking their heads with anything causes brain damage in children. ( I wonder, what about contact sports?)
I have at least one alternate personality or reality and it is virtually paralyzed and collapsed.
That was what would happen when I was pulled to the left then right and thrown down by my hair and jumped on by my Mother. That would crush the breath out of me.I would collapse, gasping. She struck for no reason and without warning with brooms and steel edged yardsticks. I remember the sound of the steel edge cutting through my hair as she struck my skull, and the taste of blood in my mouth. My left arm has steel edge grooves all over it.
When we are subjected to similar maltreatment as we experienced in childhood the obnoxious claim is made that we brought it on ourselves, it is claimed that we mated with persons alike to our abusers, as if we were stupidly so attracted. My siblings and my wife fell in love with the abuse still being perpetrated against me by my mother when I was an adult. My siblings and the women who married into the Collard Family continued the stealing crimes which women do, women steal, and they lie and lie to use the "Big Beaters", the POLICE.
ONE OF MY FIRST MEMORIES IS OF LAYING THERE MY CHEST LOCKED AND SHUDDERING AS I TRIED TO BREATHE AT 2737 ALLARD STREET IN VILLE EMARD, MONTREAL, QUEBEC. I WAS FOUR AT THE TIME.
The documentary on HBO stated that personality change created during childhood trauma will manifest then and later with personality, writing, voice and facial appearance changes.
I wrote several songs about a long time associate's personality changes and I wrote about her assuming a "little girl" voice. She could withdraw into cigarettes and alcohol. She exhibited changing spelling.
Some personality changed individuals are not collapsed but active and dangerous. There is a report of another personality changing person who would sleep after his macabre acts were accomplished. I have the sleep syndrome severely, sleeping deeply several times a day and right after a live performance, creating a cartoon, or accomplishing a drive to Victoria, or in the past to the Ferry or from it into Vancouver.
I detailed a plethora of accurate and truthful recountations of events, statements and what the results and symptoms were. I put it into writing, animation and musical performance and what do you know, the data driven Art fits right in with the HBO Documentary and my subsequent research.
Like I said " Those who witness child beating of a sibling fall in love with that beater and that beating" and the susceptible sociopaths and psychopaths among mates, associates and adversaries of persons terrorized and injured as children FALL IN LOVE WITH HANDING OUT MORE PUNISHMENT, HATRED AND PHYSICAL INJURY.
Brain injured abused persons do not, all of them, collapse like I do. Do the reprisers of child maltreatment trigger attacks on themselves, or worse, trigger attacks upon innocent persons
