ONLY BY BEING ABLE TO RETAIN MY INHERITANCES WOULD I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO OFFSET THE FINANCIAL DEFICIT CREATED BY BEING DISABLED.



OR IS IT  

SHELL SHOCK  ? 


DESPITE MY POVERTY I MANAGED TO HAVE A HOME IN VANCOUVER AND LATER NEAR VANCOUVER IN RICHMOND AND THEN IN DELTA WHERE MANY PEOPLE COULD COME TO SOCIALIZE AND TO DISCUSS POLITICS AND ECONOMICS AND TO COMPOSE AND PRACTICE MUSIC WITH ME.


WHAT IS UNBELIEVABLY VICIOUS WAS THE PLAN TO DISRUPT THE LIFE I HAD CREATED FOR MYSELF.


MY EX WIFE DECLARED THE INTENT OF THE COLLARD FAMILY WOMAN'S CRIMINAL GANG: "YOUR WHOLE FAMILY IS IN AGREEMENT, WE ARE TAKING YOU DOWN". 


REALLY STRANGE AND INSANE WAS THE DECLARATION MADE BY MY EX-WIFE IN REGARD TO THE SOCIAL SCENE WHICH I HAD CREATED WHICH ALLOWED ME EVEN THOUGH I WAS CRIPPLED TO HAVE CONTACT WITH NUMEROUS PERSONS.


"I HAVE TAKEN YOUR ROUND TABLE" SHE SAID "WE ARE GOING TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU DO NOT HAVE A ROUND TABLE AGAIN"


THIS WAS INSANE IN MANY WAYS. AS SOON AS I WAS EVICTED FROM THE BURR HOUSE THE ROUND TABLE WAS DONE, FINISHED, NONEXISTENT.


THE "ROUND TABLE" HAD BEEN BURNT UP IN THE ARSON AT OTTER POINT IN 1980. THE TABLE MY EX- WIFE TOOK WAS JUST AN ORDINARY TABLE, A ROUND OAK TABLE USED AS A DINING ROOM TABLE.


I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I WOULD HAVE ANOTHER "ROUND TABLE" HERE AT OTTER POINT. WHERE WOULD THE PARTICIPANTS COME FROM?


WHEN THEY BURNT THE HOUSE IN 1980 I WAS PREPARING TO GO TO VANCOUVER, AND I WAS PLANNING TO ATTEND AT THE "ROUND TABLES" OF OTHER PERSONS AND ORGANIZATIONS.


ALL OF THE ENVY AND JEALOUSY OF MYSELF WAS ABSURD. I NO LONGER HAD ANY SOCIAL SCENE, AND SOON I HAD NO SOCIAL NOR BUSINESS ASSOCIATES. 


THIS IS ALL I ACTUALLY HAD.