THERE IS PROBABLY A SIMPLE PHYSICAL REACTION WHICH CAUSES SOME OF MY COLLAPSES.

 

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED

Disabled not compensated means that the minute I am smashed in an accident I stop all productive activity. There has to be an alternative pay day when all of yours are terminated by injury. I WORKED AT THE CNR BUT I ALSO DID ART AND WRITING AND I PLAYED HARMONICA AND GUITAR. I NEEDED MY AFFLAC OUT OF WORK INSURANCE TO CONTINUE TO SUPPORT MUSIC AND ART. WITHOUT IT LIFE WAS EXTREMELY TAXING PHYSICALLY. IT WAS HARD TO DO A LOT OF WORK THAT WAS NOT ACCOMPLISHED SEATED. I NEEDED MY INSURANCE PAY

Monday, February 13, 2023

THERE COULD BE A PHYSICAL REASON FOR SOME OF MY COLLAPSES.

THERE MAY BE A PHYSICAL TRIGGER FOR THE COLLAPSES I SUFFER FROM.

THE SHELL SHOCK TONIC IMMOBILITY IS A DAYLONG CHRONIC AND PERSISTENT VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND LACK OF ENDURANCE IN ADDITION TO THE EVENT OR LOCATION OR MISAPPLIED AUTHORITY GENERATED COLLAPSES WHICH CAN DAMAGE MY BODY WHEN I FALL OR NEARLY FALL TO THE GROUND.

I HAVE A DISABILITY WHICH CAN GENERATE A VERY SIMILAR COLLAPSE OF ONE OR BOTH LEGS WHICH CAN KNOCK ME TO THE GROUND AND MAY DO MORE DAMAGE TO MY BODY WHEN I FALL OR WHEN I NEARLY FALL.

THIS IS A RESULT OF INNUMERABLE "THROW DOWN (AND SOMETIMES 'JUMP ON' TOO)" INJURIES WHEN I WAS A CHILD. MY HEELS WOULD BE MISLOCATED AND MY LEG OR LEGS WOULD THEN CAUSE ME TO FALL BACKWARD AND COLLAPSE.

IS IT POSSIBLE THAT ALL THAT IS REQUIRED IS FOR MY HEEL OR HEELS TO STOP AS MY BODY CONTINUES TO MOVE FORWARDS AND DOWN I GO?

THURSDAY AS I TOOK GROCERIES IN FROM THE CAR, ALREADY ON THE EDGE FROM SHOPPING FOR A HALF HOUR, MY RIGHT HEEL "CAUGHT" ON THE CONCRETE STEP AND MY RIGHT LEG LOST IT'S ABILITY TO CONTROL MY KNEE AND MY LEG MUSCLES AND THIS PRECIPITATED ME ONTO THE CONCRETE AND I EVEN HIT MY HEAD ON THE DOOR FRAME BUT ONLY LIGHTLY.

I HAVE BEEN VERY TIRED FOR FOUR DAYS NOW AND MY RIGHT WRIST IS STIFF AND WEAK. IS IT POSSIBLE THAT ALL I HAVE TO DO IS "BRAKE", THEN MY HEELS EXPERIENCE A RELATIVELY  BACKWARD THRUST AND THIS COLLAPSES MY LEG OR LEGS AND THEN I FALL, OR NEARLY FALL AND CATCH MYSELF WHICH CAN HURT MY BODY.

IS IT POSSIBLE THAT SOME OF MY COLLAPSES ARE DEFAULT OR PAVLOVIAN RESPONSES TO THE EIGHT YEARS OF HAVING MY HAIR PULLED AND BEING WRENCHED BACK AND DOWN TO THE FLOOR TWICE A WEEK? IT GOES RIGHT UP INTO MY NECK, WHICH IS THE BODY PART THE ATTACKS ALWAYS BEGAN WITH. I INJURED MY WRIST AND MY CALVES ARE STILL ACHING AND WEAK FROM THE HEEL MISLOCATION THURSDAY.