THERE IS PROBABLY A SIMPLE PHYSICAL REACTION WHICH CAUSES SOME OF MY COLLAPSES.

 

DISABLED NOT COMPENSATED

Disabled not compensated means that the minute I am smashed in an accident I stop all productive activity. There has to be an alternative pay day when all of yours are terminated by injury. I WORKED AT THE CNR BUT I ALSO DID ART AND WRITING AND I PLAYED HARMONICA AND GUITAR. I NEEDED MY AFFLAC OUT OF WORK INSURANCE TO CONTINUE TO SUPPORT MUSIC AND ART. WITHOUT IT LIFE WAS EXTREMELY TAXING PHYSICALLY. IT WAS HARD TO DO A LOT OF WORK THAT WAS NOT ACCOMPLISHED SEATED. I NEEDED MY INSURANCE PAY

Monday, February 13, 2023

THERE COULD BE A PHYSICAL REASON FOR SOME OF MY COLLAPSES.

THERE MAY BE A PHYSICAL TRIGGER FOR THE COLLAPSES I SUFFER FROM.

THE SHELL SHOCK TONIC IMMOBILITY IS A DAYLONG CHRONIC AND PERSISTENT VIRTUAL PARALYSIS AND LACK OF ENDURANCE IN ADDITION TO THE EVENT OR LOCATION OR MISAPPLIED AUTHORITY GENERATED COLLAPSES WHICH CAN DAMAGE MY BODY WHEN I FALL OR NEARLY FALL TO THE GROUND.

I HAVE A DISABILITY WHICH CAN GENERATE A VERY SIMILAR COLLAPSE OF ONE OR BOTH LEGS WHICH CAN KNOCK ME TO THE GROUND AND MAY DO MORE DAMAGE TO MY BODY WHEN I FALL OR WHEN I NEARLY FALL.

THIS IS A RESULT OF INNUMERABLE "THROW DOWN (AND SOMETIMES 'JUMP ON' TOO)" INJURIES WHEN I WAS A CHILD. MY HEELS WOULD BE MISLOCATED AND MY LEG OR LEGS WOULD THEN CAUSE ME TO FALL BACKWARD AND COLLAPSE.

IS IT POSSIBLE THAT ALL THAT IS REQUIRED IS FOR MY HEEL OR HEELS TO STOP AS MY BODY CONTINUES TO MOVE FORWARDS AND DOWN I GO?

THURSDAY AS I TOOK GROCERIES IN FROM THE CAR, ALREADY ON THE EDGE FROM SHOPPING FOR A HALF HOUR, MY RIGHT HEEL "CAUGHT" ON THE CONCRETE STEP AND MY RIGHT LEG LOST IT'S ABILITY TO CONTROL MY KNEE AND MY LEG MUSCLES AND THIS PRECIPITATED ME ONTO THE CONCRETE AND I EVEN HIT MY HEAD ON THE DOOR FRAME BUT ONLY LIGHTLY.

I HAVE BEEN VERY TIRED FOR FOUR DAYS NOW AND MY RIGHT WRIST IS STIFF AND WEAK. IS IT POSSIBLE THAT ALL I HAVE TO DO IS "BRAKE", THEN MY HEELS EXPERIENCE A RELATIVELY  BACKWARD THRUST AND THIS COLLAPSES MY LEG OR LEGS AND THEN I FALL, OR NEARLY FALL AND CATCH MYSELF WHICH CAN HURT MY BODY.

IS IT POSSIBLE THAT SOME OF MY COLLAPSES ARE DEFAULT OR PAVLOVIAN RESPONSES TO THE EIGHT YEARS OF HAVING MY HAIR PULLED AND BEING WRENCHED BACK AND DOWN TO THE FLOOR TWICE A WEEK? IT GOES RIGHT UP INTO MY NECK, WHICH IS THE BODY PART THE ATTACKS ALWAYS BEGAN WITH. I INJURED MY WRIST AND MY CALVES ARE STILL ACHING AND WEAK FROM THE HEEL MISLOCATION THURSDAY.

I PAID, IN THE END WITH EVERYTHING I OWNED LOST, AS I TRIED TO MEET MY "SPECIAL NEEDS".

 "SPECIAL NEEDS" from the blog

"POLICE POWER SOCIOPATHS"

NOBODY TOOK CARE OF MY "SPECIAL NEEDS" FOR ME. I THOUGHT THAT THE RIGHTS OF OWNERSHIP AND THE SAFETY OF A MORTGAGE FREE HOME WOULD MEET MY SPECIAL NEEDS. THESE NEEDS INCLUDE BEING ABLE TO THROTTLE BACK AND DO VERY LITTLE AND CERTAINLY TO NOT HAVE TO HAVE CONFRONTATIONS WITH POLICE UNTIL I WAS BETTER AGAIN FROM MY VIRTUAL  PARALYSIS OR TONIC IMMOBILITY OR 

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

SHELL SHOCK LIFE

I CAN BE IN A STATE 

OF VIRTUAL PARAL-

ASIS AND I WILL 

HAVE TO GET TO MY

FEET TO DEAL WITH

THIS BULLSHIT! 

I REALLY THOUGHT 

I HAD BOUGHT MY 

LAND WHICH WHEN 

I WAS ON IT WOULD 

GUARANTEE THAT 

THIS COULD NOT 

HAPPEN WITHOUT 

MY APPEARING, AT 

LEAST, TO COMMIT 

AN INDICTABLE 

OFFENCE WHICH I 

WOULD NEVER LET 

HAPPEN. 

THERE HAS NEVER 

BEEN EVEN THE 

APPEARANCE OF  

MY COMMITTING 

AN INDICTABLE  

OFFENCE IN FORTY-

FIVE YEARS AND I 

HAVE BEEN RAIDED 

AND HOME INVADED

AGAIN AND AGAIN.

Saved comments by CC. He was "fished"by the previous post on Narcissism.

 

1. AnonymousFebruary 1, 2023 at 3:01 PM

   For me the inevitable outcome of your narcissism, is a long spiral down into despair and hopelessness. That does make me happy and although you have thrown everything you can at me in anger, I don't much care about that.
   
   To just move on would be the best course, but you cannot. Its very sad, and does make me sad about the whole situation.
   
   I guess I do care.
   
   

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   AnonymousFebruary 2, 2023 at 1:47 PM
   I had you in mind as a grossly malignant narcissist as I wrote the piece.
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   AnonymousFebruary 3, 2023 at 10:53 AM

   LOL. So you are the one who loves himself too much?
   
   I will have fun today. Load up my Solterra and go to the dump, just driving her around is fun. Then I will go downtown and plug into the free Level 2 charger at the Library and do a little shopping.

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      LINDON COLLARDFebruary 4, 2023 at 11:05 AM

      "LOL. So you are the one who loves himself too much? '', CC."
      Whatever, I would not damage anyone even if your never ending carping that I am a Narcissist was true.
      Despite your accusations that anyone you want to depreciate or to defame is a Narcissist, your Narcissism is more pronounced and is it is a Malignant Hectoring and Invalidating Narcissism which you inflict upon other people to deliberately damage them or their projects and aspirations.

   Tuesday, January 31, 2023

   NARCISSISM CAN BE BENIGN OR IT CAN BE MALIGNANT NARCISSISM

   
   THERE IS NO REASON TO CRITICIZE SOMEONE FOR APPARENTLY LOVING THEMSELVES TOO MUCH.

   
   

   SO WHAT IF SOMEONE IS SELF CONSUMED? AS LONG AS THEY ARE NOT DAMAGING ANYONE ELSE, WHAT IS THE HARM THAT IS DONE?

   
   

   WHERE THIS MINDSET EXTENDS OUT INTO THE COMMUNITY OR THE FAMILY AND A DAMAGING CONTROL IS PRACTICED OVER PERSONS WHO POSE NO REAL THREAT TO THE NARCISSIST THAT IS WHERE WE HAVE THE DAMAGING AND DANGEROUS MALIGNANT NARCISSIST.

AnonymousMarch 9, 2023 at 1:17 PM

You just delete what makes you look bad, so its a waste of my time.

You do not, and apparently never have understood the laws on trespass. The Lawful Excuse part is why anyone can come to your door. The police are most certainly well withing the Lawful Excuse and anyone with no 'unlawful purpose' can come to your door.

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   Lindon CollardMarch 10, 2023 at 10:17 AM

   I fully understand "trespass". You never supply any content you just repeat your nonsense over and over so I delete it.. You think "lawful excuse" overrules the ownership of property. There were "NO TRESPASSING" SIGNS. There was a specific prohibition against "Armed Trespass".
   Your tone is always belittling and pejorative. I have saved your comments and then I delete them and from now on expect that every time.

NARCISSISM CAN BE BENIGN OR IT CAN BE MALIGNANT NARCISSISM

THERE IS NO REASON TO CRITICIZE SOMEONE FOR APPARENTLY LOVING THEMSELVES TOO MUCH.

SO WHAT IF SOMEONE IS SELF CONSUMED? AS LONG AS THEY ARE NOT DAMAGING ANYONE ELSE, WHAT IS THE HARM THAT IS DONE?

WHERE THIS MINDSET EXTENDS OUT INTO THE COMMUNITY OR THE FAMILY AND A DAMAGING CONTROL IS PRACTICED OVER PERSONS WHO POSE NO REAL THREAT TO THE NARCISSIST THAT IS WHERE WE HAVE THE DAMAGING AND DANGEROUS MALIGNANT NARCISSIST.

 

THE SYSTEMATIC DENIAL OF REMEDY FOR THE VICTIMS OF DEFAMATION

 

CANADIAN PRIVACY LAWS MISUSED

Canadian Privacy Laws prevent my finding out who is the perpretrator of a fake call, complaint or characterization of myself that triggers damaging raids at my home where I am always alone. I seriously Collapse or have Seizures when this occurs. The same thing happened at my Victoria BC Rockcliffe Apartments. I COLLAPSE INSIDE OR RIGHT DOWN TO THE GROUND ON ONE SIDE, particularly if falsely accused.

Tuesday, 31 January 2023

PRIVACY LAW IS USED TO KEEP DEFAMATION SECRET FROM THE DEFAMED PERSON

THE POLICE WOULD COME TO MY OTTER POINT HOMESTEAD AND WHEN THEY WROTE THEIR REPORT I WOULD BE FALSELY CHARACTERIZED IN A NEGATIVE CRIMINALIZING MANNER.

NEIGHBORS WOULD PHONE IN TO THE POLICE FALSELY ACCUSING ME AND FALSELY CHARACTERIZING ME.

MY EX WIFE COMMUNICATED FALSEHOODS ABOUT ME AND ABOUT HERSELF TO LAWYERS, POLICE  AND BY-LAW ADMINISTRATORS MISCHARACTERIZING AND DEFAMING ME AND NEVER ADMITTING WHAT SHE HAD DONE AS SHE SQUANDERED ALL OF MY  ASSETS. 

THE RESULT OF THIS BEHAVIOR IS THAT I SEEM TO BE A VERY BAD PERSON. LAWYERS AND MY MP TOLD ME THAT "REPRESENTING ME WOULD PUT A STAIN ON THEIR REPUTATIONS".

POLICE SAID "THE SOOKE RCMP IS NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING FOR YOU!"

BY-LAW SAID TO ME "THE CRD  IS NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING FOR YOU!"

#STRANGELY, THE LOCAL TAXES I PAY TO HAVE THESE SERVICES ARE STILL COLLECTED#

I HAVE REPEATEDLY  SAID TO LAWYERS AND POLITICIANS WHAT WAS I ACCUSED OF DOING AND TO POLICE AND BY-LAW, WHO HAS ACCUSED ME?

I HAVE NOT EVER BEEN INFORMED ABOUT ANY OF THE DEFAMATION OF MYSELF. I HAVE LEARNED ANYTHING I KNOW ABOUT THIS BY DEDUCTION AND THROUGH  PERIPHERAL METHODS .

PRIVACY LAW IS USED TO KEEP DEFAMATION SECRET FROM THE DEFAMED PERSON

DID YOU HEAR ABOUT THE BLUE OVERCOAT

POLICE WERE MYSTIFIED AT HOW 

Alex Murdaugh was clean and not covered in blood and gunshot residue.

CNN REPORTED THAT ALEX TOOK A BIG BLUE OVERCOAT COVERED IN GUNSHOT RESIDUE TO HIS MOTHER'S HOUSE.

WHAT DO YOU THINK MAY HAVE KEPT ALEX MURDAUGH CLEAN WHILE HE ALLEGEDLY SHOT HIS WIFE AND HIS SON TO DEATH?

DID YOU NOTICE THE AIR FRESHENER?

THE BODY CAM VIDEO OF THE POLICE WHO BEAT  TYRE NICHOLS TO DEATH SHOWS AN AIR FRESHENER HANGING FROM THE REAR VIEW MIRROR IN THE POLICE CAR. 

DUANTE WRIGHT WAS KILLED AND THE AIR FRESHENER HANGING FROM HIS MIRROR WAS CITED AS AN OFFENCE WHICH CONTRIBUTED TO THE POLICE JUSTIFICATION OF THEIR ATTEMPTED ARREST AND HIS FATAL SHOOTING.